a record

I was planning a wedding, my wedding, shooting, editing, emailing every day up until the day. Comprehending the end of a era and preparing for a new one. I wasn't nervous for us, it was for them...especially her. It crowded my mind (its slowly easing), filtered into my dreams, disrupted my sleep, hurt my head and made me cry out "Why?!".
But now I'm with him and I know I can love them from here - where I wake up to this and stare out at that and know that I am on the shore and everyone else is slowly swimming in too.

xx It's been two months but I am back!